Sunday, May 6, 2012

It's a wrap!

Hard to believe that after 18 weeks of prep, the show is here and gone....

The party got started pretty much from the moment Rosie got to my place on Thursday night and didn't end til we crashed last night. This weekend couldn't have been more perfect...Everything went smoothly, all according to plan..even a 5hr trip that ended up taking over 8hr was a blast. I wasn't stressed, nervous or anxious...this is what I do, this is what I love.

I followed the boss's plan to a T and it paid off, I brought MY best yet to the stage. From all the work in the gym, in the kitchen..to my hair, make up, tan and suit...the whole package I presented, I was proud of. I stood in a line up of figure women whom I respect and admire...I more than held my own, I placed 4th...4th in a Pro Show! That blows my mind..still. The competition was a tough one...The judges worked us HARD and to be real, posing practice was the one place I really lacked in my prep so it kicked my ass being up there as long as I was. I was sweating...literally dripping in sweat and I started to fade and tremble a bit, but I left it all on that stage...in that moment, it all came to fruition.

While I stood on the stage, was presented with my medal..It was a team effort in EVERY single way. I am blessed to be surrounded by some of the most amazing people I have ever met. While it's impossible to thank every single person who had a hand in my success, I do need to give my heart felt thanks to a few special ones:

*My coach, trainer and friend Joe Franco. He has been the guidance and the brains behind my off season of growth and without him I wouldn't be the competitor that I am today. The respect and admiration I have for him is unmatched. The family that is Team Franco Bodybuilding all played a key role in my stepping on stage...from Anthony and Lisa's help at posing classes to all of my team mates, whether we were 'competing' against each other or cheering from the sidelines..It was a group effort. It was a honor to prep WITH you all..to share the stage with my coach/mentor and team mates is a feeling that I will cherish.

*Mike Carrubba and everyone at Champion Nutrition. Without a shadow of a doubt, it was your support and faith in me that made this all possible...I can say with all my heart that I never would have taken the stage without having you in my corner. The package that I brought to the stage was Champion made!

*Rosie Valdez...my best friend, my sister, my wife...whatever way you slice it, you are my soul mate. This was OUR journey. We walked from 2010, through the roller coaster of 2011 and it all culminated to this moment. Through all the tears, laughter and pure, raw vulnerability..there isn't another person in the world that I would want to share this moment with. Thank you for all that you do, for everything you have brought into my life. I absolutely fuckin love you to bits <3

*To my family..those by blood and those by choice...Thank you all for being there, not just when I'm riding high, but through every low, you all helped pick me up and brush me off. My right and left arms..Rosie and Beckie..When I felt the air being sucked out of me, you gave me your breath to keep moving forward. Fiorani, I wouldn't have kept my sanity without you..For every text message, to food porn and straight up retardedness, it was an absolute blast sharing this experience with you. I am overwhelmed by everyone that came out to share this weekend with me...Jim, Joey, Saxton, Linds, Lance, Katie...those of you who couldn't make it, but I felt your love from afar..Chris, Theresa, Jaclyn, Kevin, Herb, D..From the calls and texts, PM's etc...You were all a part of this moment.

Thank you ALL for following along on the crazy train with me....
This is just the beginning!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

2 Days...DEEP BREATHS!

2 Days from now, it will all be said and done...and I for one, CAN'T FUCKIN WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did my morning check in with Joe, sent the shitty pics over to him (yeah, that's my attitude at this point) and we continued forth with the plan for the day. A slight tweak to my macros..Bumped up my carbs and dropped protein and fats a bit. Overall, about 30g Fat, 160g Carbs and 120g Protein. Lemme tell ya, I am starving!!!!! My head is all over the place that in prepping my meals, I only broke my macros up into 5 meals instead of 6...Wow, was I pissed when I realized that! Anywho, cut back on my salt a bit today and dropped ALL sweeteners...No Walden farms, no crystal light...but I did give in and have some gum tonight. It's chew gum or my own arm at this point, I figure gum was the better option. I'm still feeling "eh" about my physique but a nice pump up workout in the gym was just what I needed...I was full, hard and vascular..Slap on some tanner and lets do this shit!!!!

Other than that, I'm spending the night prepping all my meals for tomorrow and Saturday thru showtime! I'm also getting all my shit packed up for the trip..everything for tomorrow, plus show day. I am an over packer..always afraid of forgetting something...everything! Literally..between my kitchen, bathroom and spare bedroom...my house looks like a fuckin bomb went off. But, things are coming together and one way or another I will be ready.

Right now, I await my wife's arrival..or as most know her...Rosie <3 She's spending the night at my house, helping me get ready...a night full of grooming..oh joy! Tomorrow, I have a morning check in with Joe...a final cardio session...drop my babies off at my Momma's house and then on the road we will go! It's about a 5+hr drive, then I have check-in, tanning and my polygraph...so yeah, busy day to say the least.

So for now I say, thanks for following along..
For those of you making the trip...I'll see ya in Richmond!
And for everyone else on the crazy train, I promise a full recap when I return!

CHOO CHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

3 is the magic number.....


 and hopefully I will magically get my shit together!

I did my daily morning check in with Joe, sent pics and some feed back on how I'm feeling. I really do hate the way I look first thing in the morning...and I'm not just talking the lack of make-up either! I feel flat, skinny etc..But, apparently that is a good thing LOL! I hit the gym for a light Chest/Delt and Tri workout...It was definitely a good morale booster. I had a solid pump, filled out, tightened/hardened up...but then I followed with a HIIT session and nearly threw up...I am just so over this cardio bullshit! So, as per the boss my nutrition/macros were the same as yesterday, I still salted my meals but I'm cutting back on my sweeteners/sugar free products and only having a small serving of dairy. Tomorrow, I'll be updating him again and kickin up the carbs a bit so let's see how that goes......

Other than that, I'm trying to get some sort of handle on all the shit I still have to do. Somehow between going to work, training and cardio..I still have to do my food shopping for the weekend, not pack yet, but get everything together...not to mention all the girly shit..nails, toes...blah! Doing it myself is definitely a money saver and I'm all about ghetto glam on a budget but UGH, I would so much rather go get it all taken care of...of course, not sure where I'd fit that into the schedule anyway. I have food prep and a TON of laundry that I need to do, good thing I'll be rockin old black clothes all weekend.

I really don't recall peak week ever being THIS hectic..Or, maybe it's just been that long since I've prepped...Eh, who can figure me out anyway. ((shrug))

Now, I'm off for some rest before another early yet busy day tomorrow!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

T-minus 4 days!

Sometimes, I think this week is going by too slow...
Then, when I think of all the shit I still have to do, I feel like I don't have nearly enough time..I need more hours in my day! I'm just feeling all over the place...constantly running but not getting anywhere, oh well...I just have to relax and know it will all come together. ((If you know me, you know that was just me trying to convince myself LOL!)

Anywho....
I took a set of pics and set my info over to Joe. I was still not digging my look..SKINNY...YUCKY! but after breakfast and getting a nice pump during my workout, I was actually feeling pretty good about things...looked fuller/harder. I did a light back and bi workout, then followed it up with a half hour of steady state cardio.. My diet wasn't much different today, than yesterday..a bit lower in fat but carbs and protein were the same...still salting and chugging my water like a good girl. After sending my update to Joe, he did make some slight changes to the approach so I'll be updating him in the morning (again with the damn pictures!) and rolling from there.

And in not so shocking news....
I'm in full fuckin bitch mode today!
Seriously, everything and nothing is annoying me..For some reason people are mistaking my sarcasm for humor...No, I really think you're an idiot...I'm not being funny...Just GO AWAY! It's just one of those days where I am snappy for no reason and I'd much rather just be left alone.
(((and......breathe.....)))

Here's hoping for another good night of rest!
Til tomorrow.....

Go ahead...try to not sing along, dare ya!

Monday, April 30, 2012

5 Days to go....

Yep..Yep..Just 5 more days to go!

Today was my last leg workout. Nothing intense or heavy...lighter weight, as if I have any strength left anyway HA! and higher reps..worked in the 12-15 to 20 range. Extensions, leg press, leg curls, lunges...blah, blah...Overall a decent workout but nothing to get uber excited about..wrapped up my gym session with 40min of steady state cardio.

On the dieting front, things were much brighter today :) Yea, still not enough food to satisfy me but MORE than what I have had in a while..it was delicious! I'm still salting my meals and getting my water in, not as much as I think I should so I'm definitely going to put a little more focus on that tomorrow.

Macros:
40g Fat
130g Carb
130g Pro

Honesty, today was a down day. I really wasn't seeing anything worth getting excited about in the mirror. I actually felt skinny fat...yeah, I go from feeling like a skinny twig to feeling skinny fat...Try living in my head, I tell ya..it's frightening! Tomorrow I'll be checking in with Joe, sending pics etc so as much as I'm THRILLED about that (sarcasm much!?!) I'm looking forward to hopefully a little change in perspective.

Other than that, I've been a busy little bee getting things line up and organized for the weekend. The OCD freak of planning that I am is making my lists for what I need to do, when I need to do it, what I need to pack etc...It's enough to make my head spin, but things are rolling along and coming together.

For now, I'm looking forward to a good nights sleep and here's to waking up with a renewed mindset :)

Sunday, April 29, 2012

6 Days.....

Today the mental roller coaster was a nutty one...I was VERY low, then I took an upswing!

I had to check in with Joe this morning after a few days on my final plan. My weight continues to drop and I was sitting at 109lbs this morning...WOAH! I sent him a round of quarter turns too and UGH, that damn near ruined my day. Again..I'm skinny and stringy...blah blah. I'm sure you're over hearing it, cause I'm over saying it! Overall, the boss says I'm in a good place and on the right track so to follow with the plan and check back on Tuesday...Yes, sir!

My plan for today was the same as yesterday..macros as well as training, or lack there of. I went to the gym for a HIIT session and a round of posing practice. After the gym, getting some errands done and an therapeutic 20min in the tanning bed, my upswing began and I was really feeling much better about myself. I was looking fuller and lean, veins were popping....now, if only I could figure a way to get a tanning bed backstage..just sayin' :)

In addition to all the gym, cardio and posing..of course, the tanning..I am getting all the girly shit taken care of as well.  Got my eyebrows did and finally got around to dying my hair...my bathroom and my skin is a mess but hey, this bitch is poor and I'm all about beauty on a budget LOL! Details like this make me wish I were a dude and could just shave my head...but then again, my head is WAY too huge for that!

CHEESE!

Ps: Tomorrow, I get carbs! Unfortunately it will NOT include dunking Oreo's in milk...whatever!


Saturday, April 28, 2012

7 Days Out...

and let the mental mind-fuck continue........

Today was an "easy" day, if ya wanna call it that. I hit the gym for a HIIT session on the bike and put in some solid time working the heels..I know I'm depleted, blah blah...but I was just looking at myself and got so frustrated with how little and skinny I am...I look like a fuckin' twig :( I coulda threw my damn heel at the mirror! Yes, it was one of those kinda days..

My diet is very sad and leaves me hungry...SHOCKER! I slept in a bit this morning and was super busy running errands all day so overall, I wasn't toooooo preoccupied with my meals. Still salting each meal..had a wicked headache this morning as well..my body is like WTF!? I did struggle to get my water in today which is making me a bit nervous for my check in tomorrow..<biting nails>

Macros:
35g Fat
70g Carbs
130g Protein

 Random notes:
*Getting all the girly shit taken care of.
*Skin prep underway! Love LSR skin products..I would totally use their body butter year round.
*Got my huur cut...Relax before you bitches slit my throat! Just a trim and layers cleaned up...yes, it's still long...you can breathe.

Another short, but retardedly sweet post :))

Friday, April 27, 2012

Just one week from now......

I will be chilling in my hotel room all bronzed with some of my favorite people! SO EXCITED!!!!!

The plan for today, was the same as yesterday so nothing exciting to report...

I had a solid Delt and Bi workout followed by 45min of steady state cardio. I felt good, had a nice pump and the veins were poppin...overall a win!

Diet was the same approach as yesterday...so sad!
Macros:
35g Fat
100g Carbs
130g Protein

Again, I hit the gym in the morning, which means my carbs were consumed around my workout, so that made me a cranky girl the rest of the day. Meals were salted and baby girl was chugging the water...close to 2gals yet again, with ease. Oh and have I mentioned....I AM STARVING!

On a side note:
I was giving a novice BB some advice and perspective after his show last weekend and his drive and passion is so inspiring. I'm getting to the point of prep where I am dragging...Are we there yet!?!? But corresponding with him, hearing his energy and enthusiasm...desire to improve and the work ethic he has just helped to light my fire. I love how hungry he is....ya, know...slightly different than the hungry I am feeling right now ;-)

Anywho...
Til next time.....
:)

Thursday, April 26, 2012

9 Days Out!

I started my final plan today, just 9 days to go.....

I trained this morning, Back and Hams followed by 45min of steady state cardio. Nothing exciting there, just getting it done.

As far as my diet goes...YUCKY!!!!
Macros:
35g Fat
100g Carbs
130g Protein

I train in the morning and I consume my carbs around my workout, so that did not bode well for the rest of my day :(  My food choices are still the same with the exception of some added salt and oh boy, can I tell the difference since I never add salt to my foods. It has mad me SUPER thirsty, as if I don't drink enough...I got about 2gal in today, give or take a few ounces.

Other random tidbits..
Check in, polygraph appt and music all taken care of!
Things are getting checked off the to-do list and baby gurl is on her way!!!!!


Til next time.....
:)


Wednesday, April 25, 2012

10 Days....Time to dial it in!

Oh hella yeah!!!!

10 Days Out from the IFPA Pro Bowl.....here we go!!!!

I had my check in with Joe this morning, stats/pics all the goods. I'm still sitting at 110.8-111.0lbs and feeling TINY! I feel 'skinny fat'...I'm very small and IMO too soft, but hey at this point it is what it is and I'm working with what I got. The boss sent over my "FINAL PLAN" this afternoon, which I will start applying tomorrow...I have to admit, I have been dragging and reached the point of prep where I'm like "Are we there yet?!?!" but getting my final plan to really bring all of my work together gave me the kick in the ass to battle through the last week and a half.

As far as my program goes, I will be updating my blog DAILY...I'm sorry in advance for my frequent rambling :) Each day my macros vary as does my cardio/training and I'll also give a little feedback on how I look and feel. Of course, nothing is set in stone as I have to update Joe and he may make tweaks along the way if he feels it's necessary.

Other than that, I'm getting all the details in order...
*Hotel, tan, make-up are all set
*In the process of setting up my poly
*Travel plans are pretty much set...Rosie and Nic on the road together, dont say I didnt warn ya!!!!
*Gotta send over my music later tonight
*Doing the girly shit this wkend..hair, nails etc.
*Posing...PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE!!!
*Babysitter is set, just gotta confirm LOL!
*OCD list making is in full effect...but I will always forget something, always!

So here we go....
WEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Monday, April 23, 2012

12 Days and counting!

Yes, seriously...
12 Days Out!!!!

I've been rolling along with the changes the boss made after my last check in and in a nutshell I am a cranky, hungry, tired bitch..but, at this point, it is what it is. I followed up with him this morning, nothing exciting to report, weight is holding steady at 110.8lbs and I'll be touching base with him again mid week to send updated pictures and get my FINAL plan! SO FUCKIN EXCITED!!!!!!! *happy dance*

As far as how I am feeling...I think clusterfuck would sum me up LOL!
Seriously, I am exhausted...all the time! After nearly 18 weeks of prepping, dieting and training...NEVER a missed meal or gym session..I am so ready to do this. My energy levels are shot and I am pretty much useless by noon anymore. A restful night of sleep is hard to come by...I'm hot, I'm cold, I toss and turn..I get up to pee and then my growling stomach keeps me up..WIN! My workouts are just sad to be honest and each cardio session makes me want to vomit, but I'm getting it done. I am super irritable and snappy about everything and anything..for the most part, I just want to be left alone. I've come close to throwing my phone at the wall cause I just don't want to be bothered. I'm typically a very lazy person, but it's at a whole new level now...If it's not training/diet/prep related...There's a pretty good chance it's not getting done :)
Now, with all that complaining out of the way..I am also amped the fuck up to do this! I can see the finish line and it's crazy to think I'm so close. At this point, I am running on pure desire and passion...it will carry me through.

Random musings:
*I am STARVING!
*I still haven't tried on my suit...I'm scared Imma fuck something up.
*My daily headache has kicked in.
*Technology frustrates me. I still have to burn my CD for my Twalk and I am hoping to accomplish this without smashing my laptop.
*If one more person tells me how "lucky" I am or asks why I don't "look like this" all year round, Imma stab them in the throat. Let that be a warning.
*Aside from taking the stage, I am UBER excited for a weekend with my girls.
*Did you hear that?!?! Yea, that was my tummy :/
*Ritz crackers with PB would blow my mind right now!
*Aside from my feedings, the 20min I get in the tanning bed is the highlight of my day...and not just for the mint, but it's pretty delicious.

And before I go browse some food porn......
I want to take a quick moment and congratulate all the competitors who took to the stage this past weekend at the OCB Beyond Nutrition Natural in Burlington, NJ. Regardless of placings etc..You should ALL be proud of your journey. It was a fantastic show..from the promoter, to the expediters and everyone involved. It was great seeing everyone..Meeting new competitors and seeing the progression of others.
I look forward to seeing you all again....

Friday, April 20, 2012

I just love it....

I've got just 2 weeks until I take the stage and lemme tell ya, this last week was a rough one. Yes, physically I am beat...just exhausted but mentally is where I need to get a grip! Even without prepping, life carries it's own source of stresses and when piling prep on top of it all, I'm actually amazed that I haven't totally lost it....or have I??!

My moods are pretty much a roller coaster ride at this point. One minute I'm fine, the next I am snappy and a total fuckin' bitch...I'm a blink of the eye away from choking the hell out of someone or bursting into tears. My sleep patterns are DREADFUL! I will fall asleep for an hour, then up for the next 3...I toss and turn ALL night, can't get comfortable, belly is GROWLING etc. I'm usually ready for a nap by noon each day and considering I work, that isn't exactly doable. Knowwutimsayin!?!?

Now, with all that bitching out of the way...
I just wanted to take a hot second and thank all of my friends and everyone who has reached out to me, not only within the last couple weeks but really since the beginning of my prep or even throughout a long off season. One thing, IMO that people don't know about bodybuilding/physique athletes is the sense of family and community that brings everyone together. Yes, of course we are competing against one another on stage but in reality we are our own competition and the support from fellow competitors means the absolute world to me. People that I love, respect and admire have gone out of their way to offer words of advice, inspiration or motivation. I have friends who are prepping right along with me and sharing emails, texts and rants etc..I think most people (usually those who know jack shit about the sport) think everyone is catty and all that sort of shit but I can honestly say that this sport has brought some of the most AMAZING people into my world...People who's paths would have never crossed with mine in any other avenue and experiences that could have never been shared. That is one of the most under rated aspects of the bodybuilding lifestyle and it happens to be my absolute favorite.

So, with love...
from me to all my BB family <3
*drooooooooool*
 


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

17 DAYS OUT!!!! &^#$&%&

Really?!? 17 fuckin days already?!!?!?
Ready or not, this show is coming up with the quickness and now it's time to step it up....

I had my mid-week check in with Joe this morning..scale, pics, the whole sha-bang and OMG my weight is STILL dropping! I damn near had a heart attack when I saw 110.8lbs (((jaw drop)))
I never, ever thought I'd see 110lbs again and here I sit just over 2 Weeks from taking the stage and I am already at my previous show weight....with BETTER conditioning and size! That is what this is all about...bringing MY best! I took a quick run through my quarter turns and even though I was half asleep and didn't feel like taking pics, I can definitely SEE the changes. Overall, I got the thumbs up from the boss...he's happy with the way that I am coming in but no time to let up. He sent over some tweaks to my program and we are giving it a final push!

Lemme be real here...
I feel like shit LOL! Ok, that may be a weeeee but dramatic, but I am tired..hungry and very...VERY irritable. I know shocking right?!? As if I'm not bitchy enough when I'm well rested and fed *eyeroll* I can tell that everything is pretty much hitting me right about now...My strength and energy in the gym are sluggish, I am VERY short tempered...literally everything...and nothing is pissing me off. Mentally, I am so ADD and scatter brained..It's really annoying to be honest, I hate feeling like an idiot. I was actually asked if I was on drugs LMFAO!!!!! I cant pay attention to save my life, I'm incredibly forgetful..I'd lose my head if it weren't attached and I am just generally "out of it".

That's about it, short and sweet cause I could ramble on and on and it would basically amount to nothing...

It's not easy, but I'm giving it my EVERYTHING...or what's left of me :)
Ok, so here is the new course of action til my next check in.....

2.5wks out!!!!

Macros:
35g Fat/80g Carb/130g Protein (low)
35g Fat/110g Carb/130g Protein (med)

35g Fat/130g Carb/130g Protein (high)

Cardio:
4 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week (20 cycles)

Supplements:
Multi-V
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold *Thank you, sweet baby jesus!!!!
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)

Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)

Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Sunday, April 15, 2012

3 Weeks Out!

.....Or 20 fuckin days out!!!!!!!!


It's been a crazy past few days, so much going on in my head and it's reached the point of my prep where EVERYTHING is coming together. Yesterday I not only checked in with Joe via my stats but it was also the last posing class before my show. After the slight tweaks made to my program, the scale got moving and I weighed in at 111.8lbs...Holy shit! At the beginning of my prep and even as things progressed, I NEVER...EVER thought I'd see a number that low again. Obviously, the boss gave me kudos on the progress but again, it all comes down to the LOOK..not the number...Excuse me while I continue to drill that into my head....daily!

Posing class went really well! I got some fantastic feedback on my progress and the package that I am bringing. The importance of posing can never be stressed enough...I've been busting my ass to get "stage ready" the last thing Imma do is half-ass my posing and let that effect my success...not.fuckin.happening! The key to posing and displaying YOUR best physique is knowing your strengths and weaknesses..everyone has them, learn yours and own them. My side and rear poses are by far my best, so I've been really putting the time in to nail them. With just under 3 Weeks to go, it's time to really step it up and put some serious posing time in...hitting the transistions and holding each pose..Aside from making it look effortless and flawless on stage, it helps with conditioning..the longer I hold them, the harder I get...wait? Wut?!

Anyone who's gone through a contest prep knows that for the most part, it's pretty ho-hum and uneventful...til the last few weeks where ya gotta get all your ducks in a row and that's pretty much what I've been spending the last week or so doing.....

Random notes:
*Hotel-->booked, Tan-->booked, Make Up-->booked!
*Suit is GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!
*Entry/Membership fees-->Check's in da mail! This shit in ON!!!!!!!
*Hungry?!? Yes I am, thankyouverymuch for asking :-P
*Thermo Gold is my crack...I am addicted and I don't care.
*Dieting clumsiness in full effect! This morning, I spilled a bottle of baby oil on my bathroom floor FML!!!!!! Do you have any idea what a pain in the ass that is to clean up?!?! Especially with 2 dogs who think it's for them?!!
*I peeded twice while typing this.

I do need to take a brief moment to thank everyone for the comments, texts, PM's etc after my last post. I was raw, I was honest and sometimes I forget that people read this..I don't plan what I'm going to write/talk about, I just type and it all kinda pours out. I really appreciate the words of support and encouragement.

And with all that babbled, just 20 days to go and I'm giving it all I've got.....
Macros:
35g Fat/90g Carb/140g Protein (low)
35g Fat/120g Carb/140g Protein (med)

35g Fat/140g Carb/140g Protein (high)

Cardio:
4 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week (15 cycles)

Supplements:
Multi-V

Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Friday, April 13, 2012

Getting a little emotional.

There pretty much comes a time, typically during the final weeks of prep where I tend to get UBER emotional.....

While this prep has had many different emotional moments, a few breakdowns along the way, moments of frustration and even moments where I wanted to quit...I have to say this week REALLY took me to the limit and I reached a breaking point today.

I sometimes do my best thinking in the tanning bed...please, hold your judgments for another time...kthx! As I lay there, my mind was racing and I literally just broke down into tears. Physically, this prep has been the "easiest" by far...from my training, to cardio and even the diet...My body has responded differently this go around and of course my energy levels are low and I'm hungry..that's to be expected but overall, I feel AWESOME...again, that's physically. Now, mentally speaking it has really been a rough ride. I can't help but continue to question myself and all the pressure I place upon my shoulders...I expect to be able to do it all and in reality, I'm not always doing what I "should". I set a plan in place when I won my IFPA Pro card in 2010 and I continued on that path towards this show...regardless of the obsticales thrown in my way...even those that were self-inflicted. If I were speaking to a friend, I would tell them to reevaluate their goals...it's not quitting, it's just re-focusing and altering the path a bit but when it comes to myself, I made a commitment and I will do whatever it takes to reach what I set out to do....I just ignore shit, put my head down and push forward...til days like today, when it all just boils over and I explode. It was bound to happen at some point....

Sacrifice: "the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claim"

Sacrifice is basically what it all boils down to. I am giving up/sacrificing this or that in the pursuit of my passion. I'm not just talking ice cream and cookies here...dieting IMO is not a sacrifice, it's just fuckin food...seriously. I make choices everyday, whether they are "right" or "wrong"..or whatever, but training/competing etc mean so much to me that I am willing to do what I need to do, give up whatever needs to get left to the side in order to do what I love.

I think a lot of competitors understand where I'm coming from and the sacrifices that must be made at times but where enough credit doesn't go is to the people in our lives who support, encourage and and in my case, make their own sacrifices for my happiness. I am beyond fortunate to have people in my corner who not only support my dreams but help push me toward them....
My sister, Rosie who has been there every step of the way over the last few years...through every up and down, words cannot express the impact she has made in my life. I shudder to think where I would be if our paths never crossed...I am so very lucky to share my life and my heart with a man who is by my side, no matter what..good, bad and even ugly. As a competitor himself (even tho our sports are very different), Josh knows what it takes to do what you love...He doesn't want me to just do it, he wants me to be my very best, to excel and that kind of unwavering support is priceless. Every time I feel like I am going to crumble, he has managed to help pull me together and give me faith that everything will be alright.

Life can be really fuckin hard, honestly..sometimes, it fuckin blows but I know that while the road is rocky right now, I still have a hell of a lot to smile about and in 3 weeks...yeah, just 3 teeny tiny weeks, I will be proud of how far I've come.

And with just 3 weeks to go, I dry my tears put on my big girl panties and I leave you with this <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndL7y0MIRE4


Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Steppin it up!

I had my mid-week check in with Joe...stats as well as pics and with just over 3 weeks to go ((GULP)) the boss man is crackin' the whip!

My weight is pretty much holding steady. I was up about a half pound this morning, so I'm roughly 112-113lbs right now...As much as I KNOW better than to let that little box fuck with me, for a hot second there..it did BUT I quickly snapped back to reality. I then stripped down for the lovely round of progress pics..UGH! I fucking hate doing it :( They weren't horrible or anything like that so don't think I've totally lost what little marbles that I have left. I just do not photograph well at all...be it the lighting, my skin tone, not being able to set my poses, whatever..who knows and to be honest, who fucking cares?!?!! I can honestly say that I LOVE MY PHYSIQUE right now...yes, you read that right! No, I'm not 100% ready yet and of course, I am always looking to improve but I can say that even in a shitty picture or sweaty in the gym, I am happy!

At any rate, the boss clearly seeing the need to make some tweaking and with just 24...yea, 24 days to go we are gonna give it hell. No drastic changes, as we all know that isn't Joe's style ;-) We are dropping my carbs on both my "high" and "med" days...High, HA! To help bring the ass and hammies in a little tighter, I'm also adding some sprints to my HIIT cycles and an additional day of steady state cardio. As much as Imma miss my carbs and I hate cardio...the sick freak in me who loves this shit is thrilled to step up my game...This is what I live for!

And now it's time for Nic totally rambling about nothing and everything:

*I'm overwhelmed with all the shit I have on my plate...crossing T's, dotting I's and getting organized is going to send me to the loony bin.
*Due to diet changes, I now have to play with my spreadsheets ((sigh))
*Last night I was googling pictures of Oreo balls and I felt the need to text a friend..
*Apparently, I chew my gum as if someone is going to try and steal it out of my mouth.
*My BF's quad is bigger than my waist...That makes me giggle
*Having my hair down is a great disguise.
*I love baseball season...I am happy, sad, angry, depressed and excited all at the same time...and of course, it makes me CRAVE ballpark food! Can you smell the cheese steaks and crab fries!?!


Ok, bitches.......
3.5wks Out and shit is ON!!!!!!!

Macros:
35g Fat/90g Carb/140g Protein (low)
35g Fat/120g Carb/140g Protein (med)
35g Fat/140g Carb/140g Protein (high)

Cardio:
4 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week (15 cycles)

Supplements:
Multi-V
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Sunday, April 8, 2012

4 Weeks Out Update!

Oh hot damn!
Just 4 teeny tiny weeks til the Pro Bowl (((GASP)))

My check in this weekend was rather quick and to the point.
It went a little something like this:
Me: "OMG! I dropped a pound...down 112!"
Joe: "Keep going, send pics mid week"

And that is how the emails go when I'm happy LOL! As you can tell things are really moving along...the scale dropped AGAIN and I am looking tighter each day. I worked on some posing as well and I have to say I am REALLY happy with how I am looking!!! I am loving my physique right now and I am super excited to see what the last few weeks bring me.

Mentally and physically I am in a really good place. I have to admit, I love contest prep <3 I wouldn't do it if I didn't...Yes, I am hungry and I wanna eat like "everyone else" sometimes but overall, I am feeling fantastic. Watching my body transform, to see all the work in the off season finally come to light is a rewarding feeling. I genuinely LOVE the process and the journey I am on. It's far from over, but I'm embracing it every step of the way!

My brain is a wee bit scattered so here are some random tidbits for ya:

*My suit is FUCKIN beautiful! I started giggling like a little girl when I saw the finished product.
*Friends are now placing bets on what my stage weight and waist size will be...I think I should get some form of compensation..Just sayin
*Settled on my TWalk music (I think LOL!)
*This week I have been called "skinny"..Told I look like a "corpse" and a "crackhead"....From the general public, I'd say that means I'm about ready :)
*My show is May 5th! Did someone say Margarita's!?!?
*I sniffed a box of donuts and a jar of PB this week..Just stiffing, no touching....yet.

Now, I gotta get my ass to the gym before heading over to my brother's house for Easter with the fam. Yep, I'll be training Quads and hitting the step mill before eating outta Tupperware and watching everyone get their NOMZ on! Good times :)

^^^Imma rape this chocolate PB bunny!

Ok, so the plan of action remains the same til my next check in!
4 weeks out @ 112lbs!

Macros:

35g Fat/90g Carb/140g Protein (low)

35g Fat/130g Carb/140g Protein (med)
35g Fat/155g Carb/140g Protein (high)


Cardio:
3 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week (12 cycles)


Supplements:
Multi-V
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Update and a little perspective....

This morning I had my mid-week check in with Joe and I have to admit...I was pleasantly surprised! I stepped on the scale and saw no change, not even an ounce..I'm still holding tight at 113.0lbs, so with a bit of mild disappointment I stripped down and ran through my quarter turns for the camera. Now, we all know I can be a teeny tiny bit hard on myself (can we understatement!?) but, even I could see the progress I have made from my last set of pics! At this point, the scale isn't really going to move much, if at all BUT as I lean out, it is more than clear in my pictures that my lower body is FINALLY tightening up and joining the party!!! Thank you, booty and hammies :)) This is the first set of pics that I have taken where I can genuinely say that I am pleased with how I look and that the next 4.5wks are going to really be something special. The scale is a tool, it doesn't tell the whole story and the bottom line is....the judges aren't going to ask my weight or BF% anyway! So, the boss is happy and there will be no changes to the program and I'mma rollin forward til my next check in!

Now please forgive me in advance for babbling.......

As I get closer to my show, I seem to have fascinating conversations with different people from all walks of life. Once common theme is most people have a lack of commitment and passion towards anything and it's really very sad. Yes, I am hungry and of course I'd love to have pizza for lunch but nobody is MAKING me do this...I love prepping, I love competing and I am genuinely happy with my life. I go to the gym cause I enjoy it..yes, in a sick and twisted way..even cardio! Watching my body transform is so empowering and rewarding...So please, do NOT feel sorry for me...Feel sorry for yourself and your lack of passion for anything.
And commitment...oh boy, people have a real issue committing to something and following it through. Now, I am not just talking about health or fitness, it really applies to anything in life. Everyone seems to have an excuse for this or that...says one thing but does another. There is nothing worse than the whole "do as I say, not as I do" approach to life..Set an example. Don't just talk about it, do it! Actions ALWAYS speak louder than words. You can run your mouth til your blue in the face but at the end of the day it's what you DO that makes you who you are and truly shows your character.
*jumps off soapbox*

I have to take a quick second to express my heartfelt condolences to the family of Omar Monroig. Those of you following my blog have most likely been touched by Big O in someway. Omar was more than just a fellow competitor, he was a friend. While we had never actually "met" he was always there to lend support, encouragement and shared many laughs and F-bombs with me. Unfortunately, our plans of taking the stage together will never come to fruition due to him being taken far too soon but when I take the stage in May, Imma show 'em how we do it...N is gonna fuckin represent for Big O!
Love you Big guy <3












Sunday, April 1, 2012

5 Weeks Out!

It's update time again, folks...
Down to just 5 little weeks til I take the stage :o)

I had my check-in yesterday with Joe and overall it was a pretty uneventful week. There was a slight drop in the scale, but at this point the dramatic drops are behind me and every small ounce will make a difference. I'm holding steady at 113lbs even and just for kicks, I took my waist measurement and it's a teeny tiny 23.5 inches! Since I'm still making progress, there are no changes in the course of action as of now...My next check in will be mid-week so, until then...rolling along.

I spent some quality time with my sister, my love..Rosie, this weekend. We had a good girls day in the gym and put in a solid posing session. I'm definitely not conditioned for posing, so at this point forward, I plan on putting work in DAILY to make my posing and transitions flawless.

As usual, time with my girl allows me to get outside of my own head for a bit. I am having some mixed emotions as far as my physique is concerned. As I get leaner, I am seeing all the areas that I would like to bring up...Seeing where my symmetry needs work, areas that need size etc..I am feeling VERY little and I don't like it!..SHOCKING! I know that I have to keep things in perspective..and goal is to bring MY best and honestly, I am in the BEST shape of MY life...better than any time I've ever stepped on the stage and I still have 5 weeks to go. As much as I know the best is still yet to come and it's easy to pick at my flaws, I do need stop to give myself a little credit for how far I've come. Yes, if my off season was optimal then I would have made much more progress but the reality is...life isn't perfect. I had to miss time in the gym, work around injuries, my diet/supplementation were 'off" more often than not and I had to deal with life's obstacles as they came at me.
I can say that I am PROUD of the woman that I am presenting...She is a work in progress and while I'm FAR from the finish line, I'm another step closer.

A lil 5 week...sneak peek:
And that's all you're gettin!

As of today, the plan of action remains the same...
5 Weeks out @ 113lbs

Macros:
35g Fat/90g Carb/140g Protein (low)

35g Fat/130g Carb/140g Protein (med)
35g Fat/155g Carb/140g Protein (high)


Cardio:
3 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week (12 cycles)


Supplements:
Multi-V
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Friday, March 30, 2012

A little dose of my reality...

Warning: I'm tired and rambling and a wee bit crazy....again!

While taking a few moments to reflect upon my prep thus far, roughly 13 weeks or so into it...on one hand, it's been the "easiest" prep yet and on the other hand, it's been mentally/emotionally one of the most difficult.

As far as the prep itself is concerned, yeah I'm tired and hungry and I hate cardio but to be honest this is the least amount of cardio I've done prepping and I'm getting more food than I have during any previous prep so as much as I complain at times, it really has been a pretty smooth ride. Physically, I am in the best shape of my life and while getting to this point hasn't been 'easy' by any means..it's been (aside from my ankle LOL) relatively painless. Again, it's all a learning process of my body and how it responds to the program...for which I owe all the thinking to my coach, Joe who has made this prep (as well as my previous ones) as least stressful as it can be. Of course, fat loss is never a linear process so some weeks have been better than others and at times I do feel like I'm just spinning my wheels. In the scheme of things, I've made great progress and I'm ready to give it hell the next 5 weeks to really pull this show together!

Now to get a little raw and honest here...
where my mental/emotional stability are concerned, in a nut shell..Imma hot mess! Life has been absolutely nuts over the past few months, I have a lot on my plate and to be honest the responsible thing for me to do would NOT be prepping for a show. At times, I beat myself up..I feel like my priorities get so fucked up. I have a laundry list of shit that should come before competing but my heart is driving me towards the stage. I have days where I sit and cry, wondering WTF am I doing? Then I pick myself up and remind myself that if I want it bad enough, I will make it happen..no matter what! Everyday I make choices...and I can't help but think that I'm making the wrong ones as far as what is really in the best interest, in the big picture. I don't quit, no matter what, even when the smart thing to do would be to "redirect"...I commit, I'm all in...maybe to a fault to a certain degree. I've been doing whatever I need to do to be at my best on the stage, even if other things fall by the wayside in the process. The stress and pressure I put on myself can really be overwhelming at times and I see the toll it takes on others as well.

I am fortunate to have a solid support system to help me along the way and at times, save me from myself. Things aren't perfect, they never will be but this is the position I'm in and I'm working with what I have and doing the best I possibly can. Sometimes, I just need to slow the fuck down and catch my breath.....

And if you've read this and survived my insanity....this is for you:
Yes! That is a PB and Oreo Brownie *drooooooooool*
















Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Ever-shrinking, girlie girl :)

HOLY SHIT BATMAN!
Just 5.5 weeks to go.......

This morning I had a full check in with the boss..scale, pics, the whole sha-bang! I was definitely panicked a little bit. I have been retaining water as I kinda sorta got my period over the weekend (I say 'kinda sorta" but I will spare ya the details LOL)..This is the first prep I have ever had to deal with this whole female bullshit so it's throwing my head for a loop at times. The good news is, the scale continues to drop!!!! I'm down to 113.2lbs after the little tweaks that Joe made after my last check in...OMG I feel soooo fuckin tiny! I ran through my quarter turns quickly for pics and of course, I picked them apart and pretty much hate them but boss man gave me the thumbs up and he's the one callin the shots..he's seeing the progress and we are gonna keep pushing forward!

I know this goes without saying, but I'm not the most girliest of bitches..SHOCKER! But, when it comes to prep and competing, the sight of my suit makes me giggle like a little girl :)) A VERY talented friend of mine (love you T!) blinged it out for me and OMFG she is gorgeous and I cannot wait to try it on! I am a very simple, low key kinda chick in my day to day life..I live in gym clothes with my hair tied up but when it comes to the stage, I can SEE the whole look..from my suit to my hair and tan all coming together. I am literally BEAMING at the thought of it!
Some girls like shoes and purses...I like a blinged out figure suits and spray tans..Mmmmm, I can smell the LSR already! Don't judge me ;-)

Random prep musings:
*
Slowly narrowing my T walk song down to a few, although still yet to be determined.

*Putting in some practice time on my posing. I wish I were bigger and I could write a novel picking myself apart but to be positive..I did see me some hammies and my delts are nice and veiny!

*Hungry, of course I am! Cravings have been intense..You name it, I want it! The Easter Bunny will be skipping me this year and I'd sell my mom for some candy...specifically, a chocolate bunny with a jar of PB to dip it in! (no offense mom).

*Cutting off my water intake at 8pm has helped me limit my pee interruptions during the night but throughout the day I am pretty much like a toddler.

*I would love some pasta right now...just sayin'

*Lately, I have been told I am "skinny" at least once per day..FYI: Skinny is insulting! I hate skinny, it's not a cute look..I strive to be anything but skinny! UGH! I feel like a fuckin twig right now and being called skinny makes me wanna fuckin scream!!!!!

*My prep "clumsiness" has set in. Its a safe bet that I will bump into something, knock something over and spill something...yes, this is typical "Nic" behavior but it's at a higher frequency right now.

Ok, so as of today there are no changes to the program! We are rollin forward til my Saturday check in........

Macros:
35g Fat/90g Carb/140g Protein (low)
35g Fat/130g Carb/140g Protein (med)
35g Fat/155g Carb/140g Protein (high)


Cardio:
3 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week (12 cycles)


Supplements:
Multi-V
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Saturday, March 24, 2012

6 Weeks Out!

Oh shit, son! Just 6 more weeks til I take it outta the locker room and to the stage.....

I had my bi-weekly check in with Joe this morning and things are really moving along.

The scale dropped again, down to 114.6lbs...OMFG! I really cannot believe it :O) My progress is moving along pretty consistently at this point and every day I can SEE changes, to the point where I look in the mirror and wonder who the fuck that chick is looking back at me LOL! During posing practice yesterday I was like "Whoa, that bitch has hammies!"...Umm..that bitch was me! And yes, speaking of posing..I am starting to put work in more often there, I gotta get this body conditioned cause I'll be damned if I'm one of the chicks on stage that are trembling etc..I want my posing to look effortless (even tho it's anything but!). Anywho, I got a pat on the back from the boss and we're staying the course til my next check in when pictures (ugh) will accompany my stats...Oh boy, what fun..my favorite (insert eye roll here).


Overall, I'm feeling good. Of course I'm hungry and all that usual prep shit but I have to say, it's not "sooooo" bad or unbearable..do I complain?? Umm..hello?! Have we met?!? My energy comes and goes, as each day is different. I keep the diet as simple as possible, the less fucking with my spreadsheets the better..the only real switch I'm making is cutting back on fruit. I'll still have it on my high carb days but that's it. No I'm not worried about the sugar or any of that shit, I just want oats..something more filling and substantial energy-wise. I have been monitoring my water intake a bit which has helped me cut the night time interruptions to a minimum, so I'm getting a little more rest each night..and any bit is welcomed! I'm still getting close to 2 gallons per day but I am cutting it off at 8pm each night.


As far as my training itself is concerned...it's decent, nothing noteworthy..I sure as fuck ain't hitting any PR's anytime soon, but right now it's all about giving it my everything each time I step in the gym..even if some days it isn't much. The main concern now is to keep my body healthy so it will continue to progress over the last 6 weeks. Now, something I havent really made mention of (because I figure if I ignore it, then it's not there LOL!) is my right ankle. It's been bothering me for a few weeks now, making cardio even more unpleasant than usual. This is something that occurred during my last prep as well, so I have been opting for the spin bike for HIIT instead of running but either way, I'm getting shit done and a little ache or pain will not be an excuse to give less than my best effort. And that is fuckin that!

Okey dokey...Plan of action remains the same, til the next check in!


Macros:

35g Fat/90g Carb/140g Protein (low)

35g Fat/130g Carb/140g Protein (med)

35g Fat/155g Carb/140g Protein (high)


Cardio:

3 45 min SS sessions per week

3 HIIT sessions per week (12 cycles)


Supplements:

Multi-V

Champion Nutrition Fish Oil

Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold

Champion Nutrition BCAA caps

Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM

Champion Nutrition Power Creatine

Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)

Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)

Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Cha-Cha-Changesssss

This morning I had a mid-week check-in with Joe, 6.5 weeks til show time and things are definitely moving along. I can SEE and FEEL changes in myself daily so I was really looking forward to updating him. The scale saw a slight drop, down to 115.2lbs...I was pleased to see that because as little as I am, at this point there really aren't going to be any more BIG drops, so as long as it continues downward I am happy......

Well, that was until I got in front of the camera :( Ohfuckmylife!!!!!! Imma be honest here, I was mortified when I saw them. I looked skinny and scrawny and I'm sure plenty of people would say how "great" I look but the girl in those pictures is NOT the one who I want anywhere near the stage. Taking them first thing in the morning, flat and unfed is not a flattering look...I see them and swear that I look better after eating all day, getting my fluids and training, so yes...a lengthy/cranky email was attached with said pictures. Joe gave me a little pep talk (as he always does LOL!) and while he's happy with my progress and feels that I am on the right track, he did make some tiny tweaks to my program. Nothing drastic, a slight drop in carbs on my low days and adding in a few more sprints to my HIIT days..overall, just enough to keep this train running. Now, with all that being said....I of course, had to snap a quick pic later in the day after training and eating...feeling and looking fuller and sent that over to him! OMG I must drive that poor man crazy. I swear he has nightmares about me ;-)

Overall, I have to say that I am in really good spirits! Yes, I'm tired and hungry..I'm freezing my ass off and peeing more often than not..but, I can SEE this whole puzzle coming together. I can't fully SEE the finished product but little by little I am envisioning the package I will take to the stage and I couldn't be more excited!

Oddities and tidbits:
*Guess who has to pee!?!? ME ME ME!!!!
*I officially have NO jeans that I can wear...my smallest pair (size 1) can be pulled on without unbuttoning them :o) God, I am so fuckin little!!!
*I've been running through different music, kicking around some ideas for my T-Walk..I gotsa bring da sass!
*((GRRRRRR))) <---that was my tummy
*Food porn and obsession in full force! Between the Food Network and Google, its amazing I get anything done.
*I finally started tanning and damn, laying in that bed is one of the highlights of my day.
*Please, save your anti-tanning rants for another time.
*In the middle of the night, Josh ate PB...The smell woke me up. I am so fucked up LOL!

And that 'bout sums me up for now...

6.5 Weeks Out and the plan of action til my next check in:

Macros:

35g Fat/90g Carb/140g Protein (low)
35g Fat/130g Carb/140g Protein (med)
35g Fat/155g Carb/140g Protein (high)

Cardio:
3 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week (12 cycles)

Supplements:
Multi-V
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Sunday, March 18, 2012

7 Weeks Out!

My head is on a roller coaster ride, so consider that a warning before you continue reading....

This weekend, I am already 7 Weeks out from the Pro Bowl and I really can't believe it!
I had another solid week, weight continues to drop and I am sitting at 115.5lbs as of yesterday morning!!! My body is responding to the program the Joe has laid out, so there haven't been many tweaks or changes to the plan of action and I'm pretty much flying on auto pilot right now...eat, pee, train, pee, cardio, pee, somewhat sleep, pee and REPEAT!

This weekend I also went to posing class for the first time in a couple of months and it was a few hours I desperately needed. I got some great feedback on my physique and the changes that I am making with my posing to really display myself in the best possible way. Like I said in my previous blogs, I have not been practicing posing like I should be and with just 7 weeks left, it's time to get serious about it. I'll be damned if I bust my ass to get on stage, only to fuck it up by not hitting my poses dead on or by not having the stamina to withhold a long comparison round. Right now, my conditioning and transitions need work so I'll start hitting it a few times a week.

The last week I've pretty much been all over the place mentally...

One minute I'm feeling great about my progress and then the next, I just wonder if I'll be ready or if I'm even going to be bringing anything to the stage.
I finally mustered up the balls to try on my suit and here I sit, 7 weeks out and a good 5-6lbs HEAVIER than where I was the last time I competed and GASP that fucker fits!!!!!! I literally could not believe my own eyes when seeing myself, my jaw dropped..I shocked myself. Now, in typical Nic fashion I am FAR from content..and that moment of pride is quickly fleeting as I think that I look really little..skinny and skinny is NOT cute in my book. I can still see the fat clinging on for dear life to my ass and hammies..overall, I feel "skinny fat" and that just pisses me off. The reality is my body has changed so much over the last year+ that I sometimes have to step back at realize that I am a never-ending work in progress...Today, I sit in the BEST shape of my life so while I'm not where I want to be, I am confident that I am on my way.

Overall, things are coming together at a fairly consistent pace and while this prep hasn't exactly been stress free it has been pretty painless....thus far ;-) I've had my moments of beaming smiles and moments of tears...I'm sure there will be more of both over the course of the next 7 weeks but what can I say? It's just what I do....I fuckin love this shit <3

As per the boss, the plan remains unchanged til my next check in on Wednesday....

Macros:
35g Fat/105g Carb/140g Protein (low)
35g Fat/130g Carb/140g Protein (med)
35g Fat/155g Carb/140g Protein (high)

Cardio:
3 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week

Supplements:
Multi-V
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Ain't no slowin' me down!

Hot damn, this train is rollin along!

I had a mid-week check in with Joe this morning and my weight dropped again! I am now sitting at 116.4lbs with just under 8 weeks to go...OMFG!!!!! I've been holding quite a bit of water the past few days and I got my period on Monday, so as you can only imagine...I was nervous and anxious over stepping on the scale this morning, so seeing over a half pound drop was FAB-U-LOUS! Joe is pleased with how things are going and didn't make any changes to my program....yet ;-) I will be seeing him in person this weekend, so he'll evaluate me and decide what the next step will be. I'm definitely happy about the way things are moving, I am tighter each day and I can seen new lines..new veins daily!

I'm feeling much better overall than I have been lately. I've been sleeping a bit better, a little more rested. My schedule has changed as well...I have been and will be for the most part training in the morning which as much as I'm not crazy about it, seems to be for the best right now. Normally, I like training after work in the evening but I am totally zapped for energy by the end of the work day so the shift change could be working out to my advantage. In the end, whether morning...noon...or night, Imma do what I gotta do and shit will get done!

Random Prep Musings:
*Yes, I am STARVING! The cravings have been kickin in full force...food porn is a-plenty!
*Drink, pee and REPEAT!
*I am shrinking! Literally, my clothes are falling off of me :o) My 'off season' jeans, I can now take on and off WITHOUT unbuttoning them!!! I look like I am wearing my big sisters clothing (if I had a sister LOL!)
*Have I mentioned I am hungry?!?! A pepperoni pizza from Papa John's would hit the spot right about now....DROOOOOOOL
*I have had to break while typing this to go pee..just sayin'
*The weather is beautiful, an early spring and I am FREEZING all the time....and my BF is hot all the time! He's sleeping in pretty much nothing and I have a hoodie and 3..yes, 3 blankets!

Ok, enough babbling...
As far as my plan of action, at 7.5 weeks out my diet and training will remain the same, the only slight tweak will be to my supplementation. I will be making sure I get BCAA's, Glutamine etc each day. With training, cardio and eating in a deficit..I gotta make sure my body can recover as well as it possibly can.

Macros:
35g Fat/105g Carb/140g Protein (low)
35g Fat/130g Carb/140g Protein (med)
35g Fat/155g Carb/140g Protein (high)

Cardio:
3 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week

Supplements:
Multi-V and Vit-C
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition BCAA caps
Champion Nutrition Muscle Nitro PM
Champion Nutrition Power Creatine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)



Sunday, March 11, 2012

8 Weeks Out!

8 Weeks, 2 Months...anyway you slice it (cake? wut?!), show time is almost here!

I had a full check in with Joe this weekend and it went really well. My weight was down AGAIN..just a slight drop but enough to get me pumped. I'm sitting at 117lbs on the dot and with just 8 weeks to go I am feeling really positive that things are coming together. I also stripped down and got in front of the camera for some progress pics and I feel like I can FINALLY see the changes in my physique. I'm at the point where my legs are starting to come in a bit and my ass is getting higher :) YAY! Joe is pleased with my progress and where I am at so as of now, we aren't making any changes to the program and just rolling along until my next mid-week check in on Wednesday. One thing that stands out is my lack of posing, I have NOT been practicing like I should, so for the next 8 week I am going to be putting some serious posing time in!

Mentally, I am feeling really good about my progress..Yes, I am hard on myself and ALWAYS on the quest to be better or want more but I can see the changes that I've made and how far I've come. Obviously, I could pick these pictures apart if I wanted to..and I did for a hot second but in looking back (which can suck, but that's why we take progress pics) I am light years ahead of where I was during my last prep at 8 weeks out. I'm 4.2lbs LESS now and carry MORE size than ever before. The reality is, pictures don't lie and I can beat myself up for not being where I wish I was...I have to give myself credit for how far I've come. I've put the work in, I'm doing all I can and the results show that.

As far as the prep itself is concerned...It's kickin' my ass :(
I am beat..my energy is next to none. I am starving 24/7..even after eating, my tummy is screaming for more. I am drinking a TON of water, peeing pretty much every 15min LOL and unfortunately not getting nearly enough sleep...even if I get a good amount, I don't ever feel "rested". I've been doing pretty well cutting back on artificial sweeteners but at this point my energy drinks are getting me through the day. I give it my all in the gym, even if some days that isn't much..I don't bail on my training or my cardio..I get it done, even if it's less than stellar, there is no quit in me.

In the end, I'll whine and bitch about being tired, hungry or whatever but I love this sport...It's just what I do.

Ok, enough babbling...onto the goods!

8 Weeks Out/117.0lbs


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

The wheels are turning....


After surviving Arnold weekend, I had my check in with the boss this morning and I am thrilled to say that not only did I survive my trip...this bitch THRIVED! I had a significant drop in the scale today, sitting at 117.4lbs with just under 9 weeks to go! I am just 7lbs away from my stage weight from the last competition, but I look completely different...I am carrying more size than I have in the past and my conditioning is better at this point than was the case during my last prep. Joe was pleased with the work I'm putting in and how things are progressing but of course, there is no time to get content...As we all know, the leaner you get...the slower the fat comes off so it's still full steam ahead.

As much as I try (try being the key word) to not let the scale get me too high or too low, it was a great feeling to see my work paying off. More than just the number on the scale, I am seeing changes daily...waist is getting tighter, new veins etc...it's all coming together. All of my clothes are starting to fall off me and hang a little differently..the booty is no longer filling out my jeans...the double edged sword of dieting ;-)

Now, with all that said....
Holy sweet baby Jesus, this prep is flying by!
This is now the point where things start getting crazy...or crazier shall I say. I'm in the beginning stages of getting all my ducks in a row with regards to my hotel stay, entry etc...I've already got my spray tan scheduled, the second I booked that...shit got real! Kicking around different music choices and I have things in the works for my suit...and no, don't ask cause you are getting no details 'bout that!

As far as the plan of action, no changes for now.
Going to stay the course til my next check in...

Macros:

35g Fat/105g Carb/140g Protein (low)
35g Fat/130g Carb/140g Protein (med)
35g Fat/155g Carb/140g Protein (high)

Cardio:
3 45 min SS sessions per week
3 HIIT sessions per week

Supplements:
Multi-V and Vit-C
Champion Nutrition Fish Oil
Champion Nutrition Thermo Gold
Champion Nutrition Power Glutamine (post workout)
Champion Nutrition Amino Shooter Core (intra workout)
Champion Nutrition Whey (post workout/1 scoop)

Monday, March 5, 2012

Traveling, Arnold weekend and 9 weeks out!



Whew...

What a busy last week it has been! As many of you may know, I attended Arnold in support of my boyfriend, Josh who competed at the XPC Pro Powerlifting meet over the weekend. This was his weekend to shine and I am so proud of him...To take the platform and bench with some of the world greatest lifters is an amazing accomplishment. I am motivated and inspired beyond words. It was a crazy busy, yet fun weekend, made some stops to see some friends at the expo...A special shout out to Mike Hoover at the Autism Make it Fit Foundation booth and my friends and fellow athletes at the Champion Nutrition booth. As everyone knows, it's a hectic weekend and unfortunately I wasn't able to see/meet up with as many people as I would have liked so I'm sorry to those I missed :(

Now, aside from the craziness that is Arnold weekend..I am 9 weeks out from the Pro Bowl! Going away and traveling for 4 days while in the middle of my prep was enough to make my head spin right off my neck! I wanted to make this trip super easy on Josh as he had enough to worry about so I tried my best not to get too overwhelmed or obsessive (key word being "tried"). Between my luggage and coolers, you would think I was going overseas...for a month! I was able to prep/pack up 4 days worth of food and supplements so that I hit my numbers down to the last macro...Even though I thought I was prepared, some of my food ended up going bad...that's what ya get for making a 9hr car ride LOL! After the initial panic set in, I was able to work with what I had and still hit my macros. Thank god for protein powder...it's a life saver! As far as my training is concerned, I was able to get my cardio sessions in and made it to the gym for a quad workout. Overall, it wasn't the most optimal of situations but, I got it done...my diet was on point and I didn't miss a beat.


Obviously, being away from home I didn't check in this weekend..touched base with the boss but no stats update. If you think I'm getting on any other scale than my own, you have bumped your head...even though the one at the hotel was rumored to measure light and I was tempted, I didn't even go there ;-) I am now back home, catching up on work and things around the house...back in the swing of things as far as my prep goes and I will be checking in with a full update on Wednesday.


In closing....

Make sure to "like" The Autism Make it Fit Foundation page and Champions Fitness Network on Facebook to get great Arnold Expo coverage as well as exciting up and coming events/products....and basically, just do it cause I said so :)


And that's a wrap!

xo





Wednesday, February 29, 2012

A little of this and a dash of that....

My head is ALL over the place and you've been warned....

--->Checkin in'
This morning I had my mid-week check in with Joe and honestly, I was not looking forward to it. I havent really felt very good about my physique the past couple of days...feeling like I'm holding water, looking skinny fat etc. so getting on the scale was definitely making me anxious. I was relieved to see that it's down..AGAIN! I dropped about another half pound and sitting at 119.8lbs....YES I am back in the fuckin teens!!!!!!! It's been one hell of a long time since I could say that. I was more than happy to send Joe my updates and he is pleased with things and we are staying the course til my next check in, so no changes as of now..just over 9 weeks to go and I'm on the right track.

--->Have you seen my OOMPH??!
I am thinking of placing a missing person's ad for it! I have been absolutely drained lately...More often than not, I just feel beat. I am out of energy by mid afternoon if I'm lucky. Some days are better than others but overall, I'm just rundown. I dont sleep well at all...On a good night, I'll only get up 3 times instead of 5...GO ME! (eye roll) I am typically out of the house by 7:30am and dont get back home til 6-6:30pm, get myself prepped for the next day and in bed by 9-10pm at the latest. My training has been decent at best, but overall pretty shitty to be real..I just need to wrap my head around it, I am dieting and running on low fuel which means the body just isnt going to perform at it's best but I'm pushing through it and getting it done...even if I'm tempted to bail on a cardio session here and there cause I just wanna get home, I havent..not a single second less than I am supposed to.

--->Random prep musings
*I am STARVING! I know, shocker..huh? I'm not just talking junk, I would take any and all food right now...more chicken, oats, nuts...you name it, I want it! My growling tummy is always a reminder of why it sucks to try and stay this tiny year round, I love food way too much LOL!

*I am drinking anywhere from 1.75-2 gal of water a day and dear baby jeezus, I am still so thirsty and spend most of my day/night peeing! Imma start cutting my water intake at 8pm in hopes of making it through the night without having to pee.

*My addiction to artificial sweeteners is still a daily battle. I have cut back some but not totally...especially with all the water I drink, I love me some Crystal Light and I have had a few more energy drinks than I should lately to give me a boost. Overall, my usage is down though and I plan on cutting it a little more as I go.

*Cajun seasoning is my saving grace! Oh my fuckin NOMZ, I am addicted to it. I use it on my chicken, tuna, salads, egg whites...you name it, I'm putting Cajun seasoning on it. Love, Love, Love it!

And to wrap up this clusterfuck of thoughts......

Today/tonight I will be in full OCD, organizational mode. My BF is competing Arnold weekend, so we are heading out to Columbus tomorrow morning. He is benching on Friday night and I am in the middle of prep, so we have a lot of packing, food prepping and organizing to do. Obviously, I won't be checking in over the weekend, and everyone knows that straying from my routine can cause me a heart attack (can you say understatement?!!? LMAO!) but I touched base with the boss, I will have all my meals ready to go and my training/cardio program nailed...We are both poised for success! I am super excited for him, I couldn't be more proud to be in his corner and support him along the way. I just know that he will yet again, blow me away as he always does. I'm looking forward to a fun road trip, a great weekend and seeing my man shine at what he loves.

No worries, I will have a full report when I return :)

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Updated stats, pics....10 Weeks Out!!!!

Here I sit, just 10 short weeks out from the Pro Bowl.....

This morning, I weighed in and was SUPER excited to see the scale drop yet again...Down another half pound and holding at 120.4lbs! I was feeling tighter and leaner, and lucky for me and my sanity...the scaled followed suit ;-)

Aside from the scale update, it was time to strip down and get in front of the camera! EEEK! Overall, I am feeling pretty good with how I look...do I think I could be BETTER at this point?? Umm...hello, this is ME...of course, but I am seeing progress and my body is responding..that feels good. In looking over the pics, I do see that my upper body and my waistline is coming in and tightening up quite nicely but being a woman (which fuckin blows) my lower body is definitely being a wee bit more stubborn...my ass and hammies are holding onto fat for dear life.

As usual, yes...I was a little disappointed with the pictures as I really think that I look better in person and I don't photograph well. My wonderful and oh so patient photographer...Josh ;-) agreed that the camera doesnt really capture my physique at it's best. Of course, as the boss always reminds me...if I look good in a shitty picture, I am on the right track...so for the sake of my mental stability and those around me, we're gonna go with that...

I sent the pics as well as my stats to Joe and he is very pleased with my progress at this point. Things are moving in the right direction and as per my mid week check in, there will not be any changes to the program as of now. We're going to stay the course and see how my body plays along.

The goods:
10 Weeks Out/120.4lbs